My sister Angela is off to Spain for six months to tutor and teach English to a family there. I am so excited for her but not till a few days ago did I realize that this will my first time in my life not to have a member of my family close by. I feel like a little lost child. Alone, weak, and frightened. For five years I thought I was being some what independent but it was my big sis that gave me courage to be out going, gave me a place to sleep when I didn't pay rent, let me borrow money, hugged me when I wrecked her car, and escorted me from a teen to adulthood. I am going to miss her so much and can't wait for her return. However I am happy that it has opened my eyes to how I can improve my marriage even more.
I didn't see until now that in many ways I haven't been fully cleaving to my husband. I know in the scriptures it only commands the man to leave his parents and cleave to his wife that they will be one flesh but I know it applies to me as well. If I let Jake become more of my earthly source of courage, comfort, support, advice, hugs, and leading it will improve our marriage, make stronger as a couple, and better friends. Again my big sister has helped me out.
Thank you for everything Ang, I love you and I'll miss you so. Good luck out there.
4 weeks ago